what's the deal with my brain why am I so obviously insane in a perfect situation I let love down the drain

I'm sooo confused right now. I don't know if I actually still have a boyfriend right now. It seems that he's no longer making decisions because every decision that he makes is a bad one. So does that mean that asking me out in the first place was a bad decision? Or does that mean that proposing to me in the first place was a bad decision? Or does that mean that breaking up with me was a bad decision? Or does that mean that every time he talks to me is a bad decision?

He said that I wasn't listening to him when I asked him what he meant by that...but the only thing I remember him saying the first time that I asked him what he meant was something about face value. So...I don't know what he meant...so I'm just going to end up overanalyzing what he said to me. ::sigh::