I really don't know what I was going to say... I mean, there isn't really anything that I felt like I had to put out there for all to read...so I'm not even sure why I started this post now. I'm just sad...that's all... I mean...I get it...problems exist...but why is it so easy for him to just walk away like I mean meant nothing to him? I just don't understand... ::sigh::
But at least I have one of the sweetest little brothers in the world. He tried to make me feel better last night... That kid can be such a brat at times, but he really can be super caring and compassionate at others.
It's probably best, right? Considering...I've never thought/felt like his parents thought I was good enough for him or that they even really liked me...at least now he's not going to have to worry about that, right? Not that he even knew that I thought that because I didn't want to say anything that he might think was bad against his parents. I still don't even want to say it here now because he might see it...already I've typed it (or started to) a few times and then deleted it. But I'm just going to leave it this time...it's not like I have anything to lose anymore, right?
He'll make some girl very happy some day...I just wish that the girl he's going to make happy was going to be me. But when neither of the people involved in the relationship seem to be able to solve the problems [working together]...then obviously, that's not going to happen. ::sigh::
I'm going to go curl up in bed and read a book now...
But at least I have one of the sweetest little brothers in the world. He tried to make me feel better last night... That kid can be such a brat at times, but he really can be super caring and compassionate at others.
It's probably best, right? Considering...I've never thought/felt like his parents thought I was good enough for him or that they even really liked me...at least now he's not going to have to worry about that, right? Not that he even knew that I thought that because I didn't want to say anything that he might think was bad against his parents. I still don't even want to say it here now because he might see it...already I've typed it (or started to) a few times and then deleted it. But I'm just going to leave it this time...it's not like I have anything to lose anymore, right?
He'll make some girl very happy some day...I just wish that the girl he's going to make happy was going to be me. But when neither of the people involved in the relationship seem to be able to solve the problems [working together]...then obviously, that's not going to happen. ::sigh::
I'm going to go curl up in bed and read a book now...
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