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Thursday, November 29, 2007

and with a broken wing she still sings she keeps an eye on the sky with a broken wing she carries her dreams man you oughta see her fly

::sigh:: I really wish that I knew what was so bad about me that causes me to be hated so much... I mean, obviously my (former) stepmother despised my very existence because she tried everything that she could to get rid of my brother and me. It took her a little over 14 years, but she succeeded in that goal. Of course, less than two years after her success...the divorce between her and my dad was final. And...the relationship between father and children seems to be doing just fine. No irreparable damage.

And then there is my stepfather... As far as I can tell, he has the same objectives now. He's already succeeded in getting my brother out of the house...and it feels like he's trying to get me out of the house now. I seriously get the feeling that one day, I'm going to come home from school or running an errand or something and there will be an eviction notice for me. legally kick me out an eviction notice is necessary, seeing how I'm over 18. ::sigh:: I wish that was just an irrational fear or paranoia...but I really don't think it is. I really think that the only reason that he was speaking in my general direction today was that my mom was home since she has Thursdays off. Otherwise, I think he would have continued on his merry way of ignoring my very existence. And I like how he cancelled my credit card without any warning or reason as to why. Yeah...that was cool...he made it kinda impossible for me to pay for my classes next semester in doing that. But I guess he figures that everything is fine since he gave me $2000 in cash to cover anything for school. Whatever. ::sigh::

I really do not understand why both of my parents remarried people who seem to resent the very existence of their children from a previous marriage... I just don't get it. What I understand even less is what did I do to deserve this? I mean, honestly...where did I screw up so badly that I can't even be liked? I know that I shouldn't think that this is all my fault...but the only common factor between the two stepparents is my brother and me... So...that makes it our fault...

I really don't know what to do anymore... I want to be able to move out...but I don't know where I'd go if I did. I mean...I'm sure that my grandma would let me live with least for the time being while I got things figured out. She's an awesome person...even though I know that she doesn't agree with everything that I do or don't do, she doesn't try to make me feel bad about it. She just does what she can to support me and my dreams. So I try to be as respectful and whatnot to her...y'know visiting, calling her every once in a while, etc.

Umm...well...this is excessively long I'm going to go finish getting ready for class...

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

every time they turn the lights down just want to go that extra mile for you your public display of affection feels like no one else in the room

I need to finish writing my Spanish paper...but I'm lazy. It's seriously, like, the easiest topic to write about, too. All I have to do is write about this semester and my plans for after the semester. How simple is that? ::sigh:: It's too simple because I can't figure out what to write. Oh, my god...and I need to watch The Motorcycle Diaries and do my movie quiz before Thursday. Ugh...I despise school. Tomorrow, I have a MI history test...I still need to read the book for that one. Oh, jesus...and I need to figure out something to do for psych presentation... Seriously, where did the semester go? How did I run out of time? ::sigh::

Well...I'm going to go get some stuff done before I need to go pick up the girls... Ciao!! But...before I go, here's some fun tv stuff:

***Spoiler Alert!!!***

Melissa in Hammond, Indiana: I was just wondering if and/or when there are going to be new episodes of The Girls Next Door?
Season four premieres Sun., Dec. 9 at 10 p.m. Look for 12 eps total this season. Jen is already parked in front of the TV with her popcorn and a bottle of gin. (Take a shot every time Kendra is tardy, Bridget talks to Winnie like she's a person and/or Holly mentions her stint at Hooters!)

Kathie in West Haven, Connecticut: I love Gossip Girl, and I need a gossip fix! Can you tell me if Serena's mom and Chuck's dad are still together? They never made it clear whether she forgave him or not.
She did. Lily van der Woodsen and Bart Bass (or should I say L&B) are sooo on, and word is Serena is quite surprised when she finds out. XOXO, TV Gossip Girl.

from...Watch With Kristin.

Monday, November 26, 2007

when darkness turns to light it ends tonight it ends tonight

::sigh:: Once again...the stepfather is being a jerk. Instead of ever giving anyone a chance to explain something...because y'know, there's never a logical, rational explanation...he decided to yell at one person and ignore the other one. Seriously...that man is getting more and more like the stepmother all the time. Thank god the stepmother is no longer technically part of the family. Nobody needs her negativity...or blame. Okay...well...all done with that rant.

On to happier...okay, well, it's really another rant... Anyway...the printer is now special and pulls the paper through sideways. Did you know that when one side of the printer is pulling faster than the other side that it doesn't print very well? More like doesn't print at all...I don't know how that happened. It was fine one day...and then the next it was all plzzt. Y'know...the raspberry sound? I really am all done ranting. Enjoy some amusing things
from Overheard in New York...

Grandma's Had the Bit in Her Teeth Before
Little girl looking at big, naked woman statue: She looks like me, but big!
Grandmother: Yes, yes she does.
Little girl looks at big, naked male statue: What's that? It's big.
Grandmother: Boy bits. They're not usually that big.
-- Columbus Circle Mall

In Where, Exactly?
Six-year-old son, indicating sex shop: Can I?! I want to go in there!
Frazzled mother: No. Just... no.
-- Christopher, between Bleecker & Hudson

Monday, November 19, 2007

I’m holding on your rope got me ten feet off the ground and I’m hearing what you say but I just can’t make you sound

Yay for Michigan!! Or...not. Seriously. grandpa is here. I think he's putting in the oven. Yays for Grandpa!!

I'm hungry...but lazy and don't feel like getting up and getting some breakfast... ::sigh:: The trials and tribulations of being lazy...

My 11 y/o brother is home sick today...and the weird kid has on Walker, Texas Ranger...that show is so dated looking. Plus, it's really an awful show. the psycho guy on the show punched a whole in the wall...I think it was due to his overuse of anabolic steroids.

Friday, November 16, 2007

I'm Leaving Las Vegas lights so bright palm sweat blackjack on a Saturday night

I slept so terribly last night...hopefully, I'm not going to have to stay with my sister any more this weekend since my dad is in Las Vegas. I've pretty much been awake since about 3:20a...and I only fell asleep around a little bit of broken sleep was so not enough for me. And I'm having serious trouble typing/spelling today... ::sigh:: But on the bright side...I got home today just after the city finished cleaning my more 2' deep piles of leaves at the curb!!

Here's a couple of interesting news articles:
Some seriously bad luck for one bank...
Oh, yeah...totally the way to get back your reputation after being told you're 'too sexy to be on the plane'...

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

in the day in the night say it right say it all you either got it or you don't

All right...well, I finished my reading response yays for me!! Now I just need to shower and get ready for class...ugh...

Oh jesus...thank god for auto-save...because my computer just had some blue screen and then I had to turn it off and turn it back on... Honestly, I didn't break it...I don't know why it did that...

I can't wait for all new Gossip Girl tonight!! I heart that show!! Ooooh, and America's Next Top Model is on tonight, too!! I heart that show, too!! Hopefully, we get out of class by 8:45p today...then I can watch Gossip Girl without having to wait until tomorrow to see it...

Seriously...something is bugging me...I just don't know how to talk about it... Because it doesn't matter how I word sounds like I'm obsessing over it...which I am not.

::sigh:: Why doesn't anyone love me today? Nobody is sending me email ... Also...yeah...totally lost my train of thought

Oh, and on Thanksgiving...which, yes, is next Thursday...I am pretty sure that I am expected to go to: my mommy's house, my grandma's house, my fiancé's house, my employer's house...yep, I think that about does it. ::sigh:: How am I supposed to accomplish all of that? Seriously, I'm only one person ...

For Naming Me "Icarus," First of All
Five-year-old, quietly: I wish you'd die...
Mom: What?
Five-year-old: I said, 'I wish I could fly.'
Mom: Oh, okay.
Five-year-old: So I could fly away from you!
-- 66th & Freedom Pl

Just a Mistress, and Her Name Is Grammar
Cafeteria lady: So, you been good this weekend?
Frat boy: No! Me and my girlfriend got totally s***-faced!
Cafeteria lady: 'My girlfriend and I.'
Frat boy: What?
Cafeteria lady: 'My girlfriend and I got totally s***-faced.'
Frat boy: Whoa! You have a girlfriend?! Hardcore!
-- NYU

from Overheard in New York...where else?

Okay...well...I have to go shower's almost I have an hour and a half until I need to leave for class... Ciao!!

Monday, November 12, 2007

it must be the season, no rhyme or no reason just takin' it easy, it's my lazy day

Blah-di-blah-di-blah-blah...I'm bored...and feeling quite lazy today... I need to take a shower, but I so don't feel like it. Plus...I can't take a shower the way that I want to...although, that way doesn't really involve cleaning...oh, well... But on a more productive note, I got my anthropology paper turned in...and a bunch of the laundry is clean and folded, just not put away cuz I'm lazy. ::sigh:: I should use this time to work on my reading response assignment...but...I think that I'm going to go watch tv... And guess what. Samantha Who? is on tonight!! I heart that's highly amusing. Oh, and Dancing with the Stars is on, too!! Yay for television!! But sadly, Dr. 90210 isn't on tonight...some dumb Soup special is on. The Soup can be funny, but mostly it just annoys me.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

I just want you close where you can stay forever you can be sure that it will only get better I dropped the gen. zoology class...cuz honestly I don't feel like taking the class and I really don't feel like driving to Farmington Hills for a 9:00a class. I have the following schedule:
...and Mondays are going to be my long days now. Of course the computer class is a suggestion from the boy. He's a whole lot more than me. Which is why this amuses me highly (it's from tiny little division). And this also reminds me of him...

I know that "Cow plunges off cliff onto moving minivan" isn't supposed to be funny...but it is.

And...I made yummy muffins!! They're supposed to be apple cinnamon muffins, but I added raisins to them just because I could. So now they're apple cinnamon raisin muffins. Besides, there are raisins in apple pie...I can put raisins in the muffins, right?

Monday, November 5, 2007

I've been awake for a while now you've got me feelin like a child now cause everytime I see your bubbly face I get the tinglies in a silly place

Registered for classes today...and that went wonderfully. Heavy on the sarcasm there. This morning when I tried to was near impossible for me to register. So I gave up after nearly an hour...called the boy to complain, but mostly to wish him a good day. And...of course, for the second day in a row, I woke him up. ::sigh:: I attempted to go back to sleep...that wasn't all that easy to do. And then I got up again around 11:00a and again, attempted to register. Of course, that didn't work...I mean, why would anything work for me? I was told that I didn't have the prerequisites fulfilled for the class that I wanted to take...can't quite figure that one I took this other class that I need to take at some point, but don't really want to. Not quite sure how with 16 credits in biology, I don't fulfill the one year of biology requirement (one year is 8 credits). But anyway...this is my schedule for next semester:
::sigh:: Tuesdays and Thursdays are going to be looooong days. Tuesdays probably more than Thursdays because of watching the girls on Tuesdays. I think that I'm going to go to the Wayne State site and figure out what I need to do in order to transfer there...

Oh, yeah...there were a few things from Overheard in New York that amused me...

Every Lifetime Movie, in a Nutshell

Girl: Get the f*** outta here! I'll f***ing kill you!
Guy: So, I was thinking about...
Girl: I just threatened your life and you have nothing to say?!
Guy, shrugging: I love you.
-- Park Ave

Remember, Lying Sacks of S*** Work in Every Occupation

Conductor: Attention, passengers, this J Train is now going express to Myrtle. You hear me? Express. Express! There is a local train right behind this one. This train is going express! [Mob of angry passengers exits train.] Psych! This is a local J Train to Manhattan. Next stop: Chauncey. Please enjoy the leg room brought to you by the New York City MTA.
-- Broadway Junction Station, Brooklyn

So Anyway, That's Your Father. Can We Go?

Little girl, about hobo wrestling with a bush: Mommy, why is he doing that?
Mother: I don't know, honey.
Little girl: Maybe he's the gardener!
Mother: Maybe! Or maybe he's just f***ing crazy.
-- Washington Square Park

Thursday, November 1, 2007

you can stand under my umbrella you can stand under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh) under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh)

I had something to write...but it totally left my brain...huh... I got the majority of my homework done yesterday. Well...I got the two-page paper written anyway...just not the four chapters and the handout read for the test. Minor details. I'm still pretty confident that I got at least 45/50 on the reading wasn't too necessary. I should probably go fold the laundry...wash my face...straighten my someone the laundry...etc., etc.... that I've sufficiently bored you...things to amuse:

Because If Not, Have I Got a Dating Service for You!
First grader: My aunt is a lesbian... Both of them.
Tour guide: Are they happy?
First grader: Yes! Yes! Are you a happy lesbian?
-- Cloisters Museum, Fort Tryon Park

Geez, Is That How It's Supposed to Go?
Drunk old guy: That's a very nice dress... You're a very beautiful woman. If I were thirty years younger, I--
Woman: --Would wear this dress?
-- A train

Wednesday One-Liners Pass on Their Wisdom
Old man to two-year old: Man, talking to you is like f***ing talking to a brick wall.
-- F train
Five more one-liners...

Wednesday One-Liners Will Use a Condom Next Time
Child-free woman to stranger's crying baby: Oh, wait, things get much worse.
-- Throggs Neck, Bronx
Four more one-liners...

And duh, Overheard in New York...