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As of February 23, 2012, I have a very sweet, very cute little boy. Baby PGS is my world now.

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Wednesday, January 25, 2012

I'm already there take a look around I'm the sunshine in your hair I'm the shadow on the ground I'm the whisper in the wind I'm your imaginary friend and I know I'm in your prayers oh I'm already there

According to the due date, I'm 34 Weeks pregnant today...but according to measurements and LMP, I'm 37 Weeks today. I'm sure plenty of people will disagree and call me a bad mom-to-be for it, but I just want Baby S. out. I'm so sick of being pregnant. I hurt, I'm moodier than normal and I'm just over it. :'(

Anyway, Saturday was my baby shower. It was pretty fun. Guests were so much more generous than I expected or even thought I was worth. So that was very nice of them. I have some of the best friends in the world. :) I'm so thankful for them. And also, the mini-crib mattress that my mom ordered for us came yesterday, so Baby S.'s bed is all set. Now, I just have to get my butt in gear and write out the "Thank You" cards. Because I don't think there will be much time for card writing once Baby S. is here, lol.

According to my fiancé, my mood instantly improved when we got back to Michigan and more specifically the Metro Detroit area. I can't help it, I miss home. Yes, I'm trying and yes, I've made some new friends. But it's still so much better to be around my friends who have known me forever - if only because that whole awkward, beginning friendship stage is already over. We already know one another, we're not trying to learn who the other one is.

As I mentioned last week, my fiancé's mom is visiting us this week. I'm super grateful that yesterday she bought us the travel system. This means that there is nothing that we need anymore because we have a carseat that rear faces and holds an infant as little as 5lbs.

Now, back to my pity party. As usual, I'm home alone with no clue when someone else will be home again. I guess that's what I get for taking a short nap in attempt to get rid of my migraine: people leave without so much as leaving a note. :(

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

life is short, love is sweet ain't no time like this time baby goes by so fast can't get it back there ain't no time like this time

After falling asleep around 2:00, 2:30 this morning, I woke up at about 7:00 to do what else: pee. And when I laid back down, I noticed that Baby S. had hiccups. I was about to be all annoyed with him for always moving around when I try to fall asleep and then I realized that hiccups are a much better movement than the kicks, punches and rolls that I usually get about 10-15 minutes after I lie down to sleep each night. And my annoyance went away pretty quickly. But then my tummy got here I am typing up a blog post and eating breakfast. I would much rather be sleeping; too bad sleep seems to be a luxury I am not allowed.

Last week, was my re-scheduled ultrasound. We got to see Baby S. moving around this time! At the 20 week anatomy scan, he wasn't very active - or at least, the tech didn't point out any movement to us like she did on Thursday. He was moving his jaw, so he was either swallowing or sucking his thumb. But he's already head down and low...yet another reason for me to wonder if my due date is correct. According to the estimates, he's approximately 5.0lbs already...which puts him in the 80th percentile! I'm terrified that he's going to be a 9+ pound baby and tear me like no other. Originally, I didn't want an epidural, but I'm about 90% sure that I want one now. And since my only reason for not wanting it before was that I don't like needles, I don't see the big deal in changing my mind.

But's Week 33 now! Only seven left. Time is flying by. It could just be that almost every month there has been at least one big distraction, so it helps it feel like it's going by faster than if I'd had nothing to look forward to each month except waking up the next day, lol.

Saturday is my baby shower. I hope it goes well. A few of my friends should be there. And then on Sunday, I am meeting up with a friend and her husband for lunch since she's unable to make it to the shower due to work. All I know about the shower really is what time, what day, where and that my mom and our friend were out buying decorations yesterday. Other than that, I have no idea who was invited or how many people were invited. I have no idea who RSVP'd, so I don't have a clue who will be there. It should be interesting at the least and fun at the most. :)

Also on Saturday, we have to pick up my fiancé's mom from the airport. She's staying for a week or so. I don't know how long she's staying for. I'm just hoping that the visit goes well...

Big sigh. The only thing that I'm truly not looking forward to about the baby shower is people giving me stupid, unsolicited advice. I'm not sure I can handle people telling me things like, "Get your sleep while you can!" or "Everything changes when you have a baby!"
Obviously, those people have never been pregnant and in near constant pain. I envy the women who have super easy pregnancies. While I know in many aspects mine has not been that bad, it's definitely not an experience that I want to have again. And especially within in the next couple of years. Yes, I want a little girl, too. But I'm not so sure that I want to go through another pregnancy. Talking about having any more kids, I told my fiancé that unless I start tracking my ovulation and am serious about figuring that stuff out, don't take me seriously when I say I want another child. Unless I say to him, "This, this and this day are the best bets for conceiving a little girl." there are no more babies, lol.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

"you're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world" don't listen to them when they say "you're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world" oh, the smallest thing can make all the difference love is alive, don't listen to them when they say "you're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world"

It's now Week 32 of pregnancy!! Only eight more weeks to go; 56 days until the due date. Who knows when he's going to make his debut though.

Tomorrow is my rescheduled ultrasound from last week. I'm excited to "see" Baby S. again. Hopefully his kidneys have done what they were supposed to do since the anatomy scan. I really don't want him to have any problems.

We got a dresser for the nursery. I have to go through the baby clothes we've acquired and put them in the dresser. Possibly wash them, too, so they're nice and fresh for Baby S. when he's born. And the other night, my fiancé opened the pack 'n play and set it up. Then he made me do it. :( It wasn't too hard to set up or take down, it's just that my tummy prevents me from bending down far enough to pull the cord to take the PNP down. So I was frustrated while trying to put it together, since I also couldn't reach to push the bottom in place to hold the thing steady. Hopefully, once the baby is here, I have less problems with the PNP.

Earlier today I was writing this post in my head, and of course now that I'm sitting down to do so, I can't remember any of my thoughts. Can I just blame it on "pregnancy brain"?

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Jesus take the wheel take it from my hands 'cause I can't do this on my own I'm letting go so give me one more chance to save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel

Ahh!! Just barely two more months! It's now Week 31 and Baby S. is getting huge! :) Tomorrow, is my next appointment, so I [hopefully] find out if my due date is staying the same or moving. My fingers are crossed that it's moving, lol.

Sunday, 01/01, I was grocery shopping and learned that the reason people don't say anything negative to me in regards to pregnancy is more than likely due to the presence of my fiancé. My fiancé had to go to the restroom, so he left me alone to do some of the grocery shopping. Not a big deal. Well, a guy shopping for his female significant other (it's safe to make this assumption, he was buying a carton of ice cream and Always), noticed that I'm pregnant and asked when I'm due. I responded with "early March" and he said, "I'm sorry."
WTH?!? I know my stomach is larger than one might expect at early seven months, but still... I'm short, there's nowhere for this little baby to go but out. I was about as squished as my insides could handle around 5.5 months (so basically, November).

New Year's Eve was a low-key event with friends. We went over another couple's house and basically played Yahtzee and Uno until midnight, lol. Her niece and mom were over as well...and her niece is two years old, we rang in the new year to the sounds of Caillou. You know you're jealous, lol. His son was also over, but the little boy is one of those kids that doesn't do well when his schedule is messed up. So he was already in bed when my fiancé and I came over around 8:00pm. I was a little sad to miss seeing the kid, he's such a funny and adorable little boy.

And since his son is 18 months old, he gave us some more clothes and toys that his son has outgrown. Seriously, by the time my little boy gets here, all we're going to need is some food. We have so many clothes, blankets, caps, towels and wash clothes thanks to our friends. It's amazing. :)

Over Christmas, we had a little mini-baby shower with my fiancé's family since they're out of state and asking them to return less than a month later for a baby shower is unfair. So one of them came up with the idea that we have a little mini-shower at Christmas time. Anyway, thanks to his family, we have a convertible car seat (20-100 lbs), a pack n' play, a bathtime gift pack and a few other small things that we didn't register for, but also didn't think to include. We got some of those thick, burp cloth/changing pads from his grandma and aunt. Those are something that we didn't put on the registry, but I also didn't think to include them. I'm sure I had a reasoning for not including them, but I can't remember it right now.

January 21st is my baby shower. I can't wait to see some of my friends. I just hope that my mom got the invites mailed on time and people can make it. It's not even about the gifts, I just want to see my friends. :)

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

all is quiet on New Year's Day a world in white gets underway I want to be with you be with you night and day nothing changes on New Year's Day on New Year's Day

I was looking at the yearly breakdown of blog posts and noticed just how badly I slacked off in 2009 and 2010: a combined total of 25 posts, lol. Pretty bad in comparison to 2008 where I had 248 posts. True, 2008 was a bad year for me, but still...did I really think that I could only blog about the terrible things in my life? Why was I so melodramatic? But anyway, last year was a good year, 155 posts. Or an average of 12.9 posts per month. Not bad at all.

What I'm wondering about is: will 2012 be more like 2009/2010 or more like 2011? How will having a new baby change my blogging habits? Mind you, I won't be sharing obvious details about my little one. There will be no face pictures of him and it's very unlikely that I will use his real name on here. But will I stop sharing due to lack of time or will I still be able to blog once or twice a week?

Anyway, here's a screenshot of the evolution of my blog in terms of posts per year: