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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

and though there are times when I hate you 'cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face

How do you learn to trust people when the people you do trust keep hurting you? I don't get it...what is it about me that says, 'hurt me!'? Because there must be something that just screams that. What else is it? My stellar ability to judge people? Ha, that's probably it more than anything else. I keep trusting the wrong people and it just keeps making my majorly huge trust issues worse. And if things continue the way that they have been...I'm not gonna trust anyone at all. I don't want that. I don't want to be broken. I hate crying. I don't care what anyone says, it is a sign of weakness. I'm just a mess of a wonder people can't stand me.

I don't even know what to say because I don't want to make things worse than they already are. But I so need to vent and get things off my chest so that I'm not holding it all in.

Ugh...I need to do my physics homework...but all I want to do is cry. It sucks.