oh I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do and I've hurt myself by hurting you

::sigh:: The previous post today was a bit, well...a lot more negative than I had intended it to be. The boy really isn't as horrible of a person as I made him seem to be.

It's just that I have so many questions right now...but I have no idea how to get them answered. It just sucks that I'm being left to speculate and come up with my own answers to my questions. And since I'm being pessimistic about it...I'm not coming up with the best answers. Hopefully...if I can get my questions answered...then the real answers won't be as bad as the ones that I've imagined. But if they are...then I can deal with that...