Today the Cosmo daily horoscope says:
Libra - Single? Your highly charged sexuality might bowl over a cutie you see every day when he notices you in a hot, new light. Attached? Thanks to the passionate Moon, you might feel an erotic rush so intense that you can't be bothered with a bed tonight.
Umm, yeah...I'm really not sure which part of that (meaning the single or attached) pertains to me, but I'm more sure of the unlikely to come true part...
I have no idea whether or not I still have a fiancé, let alone a boyfriend. I honestly don't know what's going on anymore. The only thing that I know for sure is that he is saying one thing to me and his actions are saying something else to me. And I don't think the words are what he really means. It just feels like every day there is something new added to the list of what's wrong with me and why I am such a terrible person. I get it...I'm moody and everyone hates to be around me. Yeah, a majority of the listed things are the same each time...but it just seems like the list is getting longer and longer each time because: [a] he's annoyed by every little thing I do; [b] he's getting bolder and more willing to tell me; or [c] some combination of the two choices. ::sigh:: I'm not sure which...
He just keeps yelling at me over and over and over again for the same things...and then analyzing my behavior and treating me like a small child. He's well aware of the fact that I don't like to be told what to do and do horribly when I'm yelled at...yet somehow he thought that by doing just that it was going to help change my behavior? I don't understand...I don't know what to do...I just... ::sigh:: I guess that's pretty much why I put all of his stuff that I have in my room together as though at any moment he's going to ask for it back... I really don't know what he wants from me anymore. Are we just going through the motions until it becomes unbearable? Because if so, I really don't think that I can handle that...I need to know what's going on...and he doesn't answer my questions, just tells me to change. ::sigh::
I have no idea whether or not I still have a fiancé, let alone a boyfriend. I honestly don't know what's going on anymore. The only thing that I know for sure is that he is saying one thing to me and his actions are saying something else to me. And I don't think the words are what he really means. It just feels like every day there is something new added to the list of what's wrong with me and why I am such a terrible person. I get it...I'm moody and everyone hates to be around me. Yeah, a majority of the listed things are the same each time...but it just seems like the list is getting longer and longer each time because: [a] he's annoyed by every little thing I do; [b] he's getting bolder and more willing to tell me; or [c] some combination of the two choices. ::sigh:: I'm not sure which...
He just keeps yelling at me over and over and over again for the same things...and then analyzing my behavior and treating me like a small child. He's well aware of the fact that I don't like to be told what to do and do horribly when I'm yelled at...yet somehow he thought that by doing just that it was going to help change my behavior? I don't understand...I don't know what to do...I just... ::sigh:: I guess that's pretty much why I put all of his stuff that I have in my room together as though at any moment he's going to ask for it back... I really don't know what he wants from me anymore. Are we just going through the motions until it becomes unbearable? Because if so, I really don't think that I can handle that...I need to know what's going on...and he doesn't answer my questions, just tells me to change. ::sigh::
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