I’m not fine I’m in pain it’s harder everyday maybe we’re better off this way? it’s better that we break...

Hooray for giving up!!! Yep yep yep...even though you told me that I should quit pretending and stop living my life for other people...I'm going to continue to do what's worked oh-so-well in the past for me. Trying to do the right thing isn't going to work out. It really isn't...I just don't care enough for it to. So...sorry...except that I'm not really. I mean, I am because I know you'll be upset, but I'm not sorry because it's so much easier. Giving up is the easier thing to do. Trying to control it isn't working for me anymore, I can't do it. It's too hard and too much work. It's causing me too much stress. Pretending is easier and it always will be...happier isn't necessary. Sorry, it just isn't.

P.S. sorry to anyone that wasted time trying understand this...

[originally posted on my MySpace blog]